I am very sick! My chest is really yucky and full of gunk. I cough A LOT. My head hurts and all I want to do is sleep, but all I can do is cry. Can you tell how sad I am? My cries can not be heard through a picture can they? My Mommy says they are so sad. I can tell they break her heart because I can see her crying too even though she tries to hide it from me. I'm on oxygen. I don't like the tubes but they help me feel better. My Mommy had to suction out my nose and throat and that makes me feel better too, but I DO NOT like it when she does it, I scream at her when I have the energy, but she keeps doing it so I'll get better. That is what she keeps telling me when she does it, my Mom says "I'm so sorry Megan" and then does it anyway! There has to be a good reason for her to hurt me because I know she hates it, I can see it on her face, but I hate it more. I have to admit I can breath much better when she is done though, but don't tell her that.
So after days and days of this stuff I am beginning to feel better. I'm still on oxygen but I've found my smile!
I'm not crying so much. I'm still coughing and gagging quite a bit, I know how much it begins to grate on my Mommies nerves, it is a horrible sound to have to hear ALL DAY and NIGHT! How much worse is it for me? I have to hear it while I'm doing it and it hurts the whole time, I hate coughing. Mommy spent a lot of time with the suction machine and me. It is a love hate relationship we have with my suctioning machine, but we both know it is one of the reasons I am getting better and I don't have to go to the hospital because we have it here and that ROCKS! I really do not like going to the hospital so my Mom does everything she can to keep me home. We have the best doctors who give us whatever we need to keep me at home too. There is no place like home after all!My Mom has told me of all of the wonderful people who are praying for me. I am so thankful that my Heavenly Father has given me such wonderful caring people in my life. I benefit from each and everyone of your prayers and wishes. Your energy is amazing and it lifts my Mommy up so that she can do what she needs to do to take care of me, and I know that it isn't easy. So thank you to each and everyone of you that have cared.
My oxygen is now turned off during the day and is only minimal at night. I am not coughing or gagging much at all anymore and my Mom is getting some sleep at night again. We made it! Spring is here and I am looking forward to spending time outside, I love the sun :)
